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I'm really thinking about getting a beetle. They're so fucken cute! Haha! I've been told that it's so.. "me."

LOL!(:

It's hard to be separated from by siblings-the only family I actually have. It's hard to watch my friends walk out of my life. It's hard to pull away from everyone. especially the ones that you want the most. It's just hard to watch everything fall when you can't do anything about it.

I've come to conclusion that things are probably gonna get worse from here. I'm not being pessimistic or anything, I'm just being realistic. Whatever you have.. throw it at me. I don't give a fuck. I'm ready.

Sometimes, you make me feel like the worst person that ever lived. It's not that you do it intentionally.. It's because you're so good to me. I feel like I'm taking advantage of you, even though I'm really not trying. When you tell me you miss me and love me, I feel like ripping my head off. Sometimes, I feel so unworthy of you.. it makes me wanna choke myself for being such a douche.


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Today was pretty great! We received report cards today, and I did well-besides the C in Art II. I'm trying HARDER this quarter, and I'm gonna try to help Marita, one of my good friends, out. Since I had the highest grade in my Education for Careers class, I had the reward of two bags of baked cookies (which I'm eating while I'm blogging!). My other grades were good, and I'm pretty proud about that. I'm really trying to make a 4.0 for the final grade. It would help my GPA a lot, and it'd make me worry less about the Honors TOPS Award.

I pretty much ate junk food all day. I had things like cookies, brownies, Pocky, chips, and chocolate. This had me pretty hyped for the whole day. I'm at home right now, and I'm exhausted. This crash sucks!

We had a pep rally today, and our class dressed up as "hunters." I wore camouflage and black stuff on my face to fit in with the theme. I don't like wearing camouflage, but it's a good way to show good class and school spirit. I got more compliments than usual, so I was feeling even more great. Plus, I had my fake lashes on! Ah, those are great♥! The pep rally went well, because our class finally decided to come together and chant! We did pretty well, cos we never united as freshmen. By the way, I made up the chant. Hehh!

Now, my throat is hurting as hell. It hurts to drink stuff, but I think it's worth it. Whenever the whole class was chanting MY chant, it felt really nice to be the foundation of something so big. We didn't win, but I'm pretty sure we'll be a lot better next week.

I'm the type of person that likes to crush someone's ego if they're conceited.

My day was pretty great.. There was a lot of good news, and a lot of things to look forward to.

In first block, we had a guest speaker to interview. Even though Ms. Moore kept talking about how she became the assistant principal, I didn't fall asleep. I actually managed to listen to a lot of what she said, and got candy for repeating some of her answers. I have a 99A in that class as of now, but I think it'll definitely add up once my bonus points are put into the site.

In second block, we had a lot of work to do since Ms. Trahan wanted us to make our own study guides. She let me take the book home to finish all of the work. Talk about over-achievement, eh? I have a 97A in that class right now, and it's not going up or down since she's entered all of the grades for this quarter. I feel really accomplished.

In third block, I finished my hard-edge painting. Before, I chose to paint a picture of Mega Man -_-. That kinda burdened me for a while, but everyone praised my work once it was done. I was really flattered, and I really enjoyed the last half of the painting. I think I'm actually starting to enjoy painting. I never thought it was my thing.. I no longer have a C in that class, and it makes me super happy! Richard changed the assignment into a 100 point assignment, so my grade raised from an 85C to a 90B since I had full credit for the designs. I'm hoping that my painting and test scores bring it up.. D: I really want that A!

In fourth block, I was the second to finish the project test. I finished the assignment after, too. I'm kinda anxious to see what I have in that class since I didn't finish my project. It's a good thing that Mrs. Roberts grades on quality, not quantity. As of now, I have a 96A in this class.

I've been getting compliments in every class about my artistic skillzzz. I have a thing for designing, and things dealing with art, so I think I'll look into that. Education for Careers is actually helping me with my decisions for the future. The people that I've interviewed actually influence me, and they make me determined to reach my goals.. I'm not sure what my complete dream is as of now, but I think I have the drive to do what I want. The fact that money is REALLY tight makes me even more determined to do well in school.



I'm getting lazy. Hi, Carrie!

My school year's been great so far. I've been really sleepy, though. Even if I get my perfect 9-10 hours of sleep, which rarely happens, I still find myself sleeping on class-even the ones that aren't boring.

1st Block (Comeaux): Education For Careers

I really wanted to take this class, and I don't regret it at all. It helps me learn more about myself, and what I'd want to do with my future. Apparently, I'm a Blue personality. It has to do with harmony or something. It's the rarest personality, and only 10% of the world's population has this color! I always try my hardest in the class since it seems like Mrs. Comeaux puts in so much effort into our lessons and stuff. Since most of her activities are hands on, I usually find myself up in her class.

2nd Block (Trahan): Digital Graphics and Animation

This class is pretty easy so far. We had our first test on Friday, and I pwned that shit. I didn't study at all, but I pretty much zoomed through it. The teacher and I get along well, and I didn't get bitched at for putting makeup on in class. *Thinks back to the time where Mr. Gray was standing at the door window while I was putting eyeshadow on. LOL* She's cool.

3rd Block (Richard): Art II

I don't even remember signing up for this class, honestly.. I should seriously start paying attention, though. This is the class I usually sleep in. I guess I'll just stay there since I need it for my Fine Arts Survey substitution that I'll need for TOPS. I'm scared that I'll end up failing that class since he always adds different stuff in the middle of the assignment. I'm glad that I have decent art skills, tho. If I didn't, I'd epicly fail.. Must I mention that I sit right near my cousin, Mayo, and she's a fucking beast. It makes my confidence drop everytime someone comes around our table to look at her work. :( Lol

4th Block (Roberts): Geometry H

The teacher's really cool. She always helps us out, and she says "crap" a lot. That's something that we definitely have in common. Even though she can seem a little bipolar sometimes, I like her methods of teaching. I thought I bombed her makeup test last week, but I ended up making an 89. Wtf?!?! MAYBE MIRACLES DO HAPPEN!


I miss my ex-bestfriend a lot. I tried IMing her a few times, but she never replies. Some people wouldn't even bother to talk to her again, but I just can't find myself not being friends with her. I found out that she talks to my friend again, which is another person she shut out before, and it kinda made me upset. I'm not jealous or anything, but it makes me upset knowing that she ignores me on purpose. It's kinda worse than blocking me and shit. I've been going through a lot, and I just wish I can tell her everything.. and catch up.. and make up.. and move on from the mistakes that I've made.

My siblings and I seem to be getting closer, nowadays. I hang out with them sometimes, and I even bump into them whenever I go out. We're supposed to be going to Incredible Pizza next weekend, so I'm pretty excited for that. My niece will be with us. I'm excited to hang out with her more. I really wanna be a part of her life, since her dad's side of the family isn't as involved. She's growing up so fast, and I seriously almost cried when I saw that she was missing a tooth :(. Even though everyone's struggling in their own separate lives, it seems nice to unite and laugh about stupid stuff. I actually feel like I have a family again, and it feels so good since I used to feel so abandoned by everyone. I won't let my dad come in the way of that anymore, because I kinda feel that it's his fault for not letting me go out and see my own siblings.. I feel that everyone shouldn't suffer for one person's personal opinion.

My "love" life is going fine, I guess. I've been trying to get over the same guy for a while now. I guess I can say I'm over him, but I miss him a lot.. Sometimes, I just can't help myself when I miss him so much, but we both realize that it won't work when the day is over. That's a mutual understanding. I don't know. I kinda don't wanna get involved with this guy I have a crush on at school, cos a lot of girls are crushing on him at the moment. I guess they're all over him cos he's the new boy in town. We're sick and tired of seeing the same guys-no offense. We'll see how that goes. I'm kind of apathetic about it at the moment.

My dad and I seem to be getting along okay. As much as he tells me that he won't do this or that anymore, like giving me money or bringing me anywhere, he still does. I was surprised that he actually had a serious talk with me the other day. He said that he wanted me to be the over-achiever of all of my classes, and he wanted me to have good conduct. Before, he'd just tell me to try my best, and to not miss school. He wouldn't even trip on me if I failed the class. Maybe it's a big change of view since money's tight, and there's almost nothing in my savings account anymore. My savings account being drained is DEFINITELY not my fault btw.



I've done a lot of growing up this year. I can honestly say that I'm a lot less dependent, and it makes me proud to say that. G'day!

I keep forgetting to blog. Either that, or I get lazy.

This weekend was nice.

On Saturday, I woke up around 12 since Ta came to my house to pick me up. We went to Laff, and drove around to run some errands. Then, we hung out at Lin's place. Since she's going on vacation in a few days, we wanted to hang out for one last time. I went to Bojangles after to eat with Karly and Kelly. They're so dingy. Lol, and we probably made a lot of noise there. After that, Ta dropped me off at my sister's house. She wasn't home at the time, and I find out that everyone's at the party.

I was gonna hang out with Jr, Lin, and Ta that night, but I stuck to my plans with my sister. Plus, I had my in-laws in town. The party was nice. Family was there, and the adults were giving out shots and beers to me. I ended up getting a little drunk. Even tho there were some pedo ass niggas on my jock, it was all gewd. They backed off-probably cos my sister was buckin and cos I'm Jay's little sister.

So, we go back to my sister's house and we hung out. Blah blah blah, I talk to this loser for the rest of the night, basically.

When I woke up, I had to go to.. church.temple. Ugh.. I was feeling like crap: in pain; hungover; tired; and sick. I had to sit in the most uncomfortable position ever for a few hours. It was so hot to the point where I was sick. I feel a little sick, still. There was this annoying ass CNN lady that was there talking about my sister and I. I bumped into one of the guys that tried to hit on me last night, and it was awkward since I was trying to avoid him. When we left, we just hung out for a while.

When my brother came to pick up my sister and I, we went to the movies and Pho Ly Ly. It was pretty nice to hang out with the family again. I'm not gonna let my dad get in the way of that anymore. He shouldn't bring me down just cos he's down.

But I ended up having t.o.m., and now it explains why I was in so much pain this morning. It was kinda awkward cos my brother had to give me money to buy lady stuff.. I mean, I know guys understand and stuff, but I was still uncomfortable with it. I didn't even expect to get my rag.

Lol A combination of a hangover and body cramps is NOT COOL

I was up all morning since I had to get ready for orientation at 8. 

Before, then I spent my time in Alice's live bagging on people due to lack of sleep and boredom. Apparently, lack of sleep makes me crazy. 

By the time I was ready, I had to drive to school in someone else's car. I was really mad because it stunk like fish, and I was scared that I'd smell like fish whenever people would hug me. Luckily, I still smelled good-like usual. Orientation started, and I hung out with Doug (my bestfriend), Sammy, Phil, Sandy, and Daniel for the most part. It was weird seeing everyone grow so tall. I was still one of the shortest, and it seems like the 4'10" twins are catching up to me. Lol

I let Phil hold my schedule, but he left it at his house, and I was too lazy to get it. I remember having these people for my fall semester:

1. Education for Careers - Some teacher in Freshman hall
2. Webmastering (I think) - MS. Trahan.. Ugh! Fml!
3. Art II - Richard
4. Geometry H - Some teacher down arts and tech hall

I can't believe Art's on my schedule. The teacher's pretty lame. I DID NOT sign up for the class, and I already told him that I didn't wanna take the class. He still recommended me. Ergh! I'm kinda nervous for Trahan's class because I always hear her yell. It's bad when the other teacher's warn you about her. I used to hear her yell nonstop during fourth period for freshman year.

I kinda wanted P.E. this year, but I don't remember if I have it. But when it really comes down to it, I don't care what electives I have anymore. 

I hung out with "the click" 'til about 10 then I went home when my dad picked me up from school in the smelly car. it was pretty embarassing how they announced my full name on intercom. Haha.. I knocked out about 30 minutes after I came home. My nap was pretty awesome until my uncle started banging on the door, asking for my dad.

After chatting and stuff, I decided to watch anime. I wanted to try something new, since I don't have the patience for dramas. I'm watching Fruits Basket, and it looks cute.

I just killed a mosquito that's been attacking me for the past two hours!

I decided to go over to Bri's yesterday to finish my summer reading. I basically went there empty handed-not including my hair/body products. I felt bad for distracting everyone. It seems like I have a short-attention span or something. We ended up pulling an allnighter, and that's something that I DON'T regret. It seems like I didn't remember much of what I read whenever my friends went through the book. I forgot some of the main details. I ended up finishing my summer reading packet within 14-16 hours. If I didn't play around for the most part, I would've been able to sleep and finish Kathy's summer reading. Even though I played around a lot, it was nice to be surrounded by people I can laugh with. We did a lot of stupid things, and they started to become dumber each hour we stayed up. Matthew started to hump stuff, even things that weren't Adrian. He broke her door from hanging on it and humping it. LOL. Soon enough, we weren't normal people due to the lack of sleep. The coffee helped a little, though. Our discussions varied from the non-Jewish ten Boom family to me being a telephone sex operator.

That started to get uncomfortable after I read aloud. Brianna couldn't concentrate because my voice was "sexy" and Matt started "fapping" under his blanket. Jesus

When I got to the school, I saw a few freshmen. It made me lol to myself cos I used to be an ugly ass girl who looked like ten year old boy. This year, I looked a lot more feminine! Thank Lawd! I was told I looked different. I do dress more femininely now, and wear makeup. It does feel better to carry myself differently with my head higher. Hahaaaa

After testing, which was at 10, we went back to Bri's house. Bri started karaoking to Pink. She continued to sexually harass Matt and her little brother. Disturbing! After about an hour or so of me being a cam whore, Bri and I crashed. I was surprised that my dad even engaged in a conversation with me. Even though I was half asleep, I tried to stay up because things like this rarely occur!

I pretty much had a seven-hour nap.

When I woke up, my dad still had food out for me. Yummy chicken-tomato soup! MMMM! The stir fry was okay, but I was really happy that he made the soup for me. He knows I like it!

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I decided to go outside to relax and think a little. I started to miss my sister a lot. We'd always sit outside and talk about things while smoking.. This time, I was by myself. The stars were pretty decent tonight, and I was glad that I actually saw any! I'm assuming that my neighbors saw me, but I didn't really care at the moment. It would be really bitchass of them if they snitch on me! After being eaten alive by mosquitos, I came back inside and decided to blog.

I hope I get to see my sister again! I miss her!